All About Us

I cannot listen to this song without remembering how we had planned our whole life together. I can't help but remember when we planned out where we were going to get married, you even went in search of the perfect palce and when you found it you called me and told me you had. I remember sending you a picture of my dream wedding dress, I remember you saying I would look so absolutely beautiful in it. I remember when we got in a fight and you brought over a dozen white roses at ten o'clock at night because they were my favorite. I remember when you called me "baby" and you would talk about how much you loved me and how crazy it was that you had fallen in love in less than a week. I remember how that week turned into months. It would have and could have turned into years if you would have let it. If you wouldn't have left.
I can't blame you.
Just know I miss you.
Just know. .  This is a feeling I've never felt.
It's all about us.

*Take my hand, I’ll teach you to dance.
I’ll spin you around, won’t let you fall down.
Would you let me lead, you can step on my feet.
Give it a try, it’ll be alright.

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s all about us.

Suddenly, I’m feeling brave.
Don’t know what’s got into me,
Why I feel this way.
Can we dance, real slow?
Can I hold you,can I hold you close?

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s all about us.

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready?
Oh I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready yet?
Love I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready yet?
Oh I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

Lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it’s all about us.
It's all about us.
It’s all, all, all, all.
Every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt,
But it’s all about us.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it’s all about us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s oh, oh,
It’s all about us*

To Love You More

Take me back in the arms I love 
Need me like you did before 
Touch me once again 
And remember when 
There was no one that you wanted more 

Don't go you know you will break my heart 
She won't love you like I will 
I'm the one who'll stay 
When she walks away 
And you know I'll be standing here still 

I'll be waiting for you 
Here inside my heart 
I'm the one who wants to love you more 
You will see I can give you 
Everything you need 
Let me be the one to love you more 

See me as if you never knew 
Hold me so you can't let go 
Just believe in me 
I will make you see 
All the things that your heart needs to know 

I'll be waiting for you 
Here inside my heart 
I'm the one who wants to love you more 
You will see I can give you 
Everything you need 
Let me be the one to love you more 

And some way all the love that we had can be saved 
Whatever it takes we'll find a way 

I'll be waiting for you 
Here inside my heart 
I'm the one who wants to love you more 
You will see I can give you 
Everything you need 
Let me be the one to love you more

It Was Only A Kiss

I want to cry, all the time, I want to scream and cry and I just wish you would care because to be honest, you are the one breaking me apart with the words you think will make me fall into your arms. 

"It was a mistake, Mikky."

"No, it wasn't you made the same mistake twice."

"And I won't do it a third time, I realize what I had when I lost it."

"Good, I should have left the first time."

"I never meant to hurt you."

"Don't pull that shit with me, Michael. You wanted her and I wasn't her. She was blonde, she was blue eyed and gorgeous and she gave you everything I couldn't."

"She was a mistake!"

"So we're you."

"You don't believe that."

"Yes, I do."

"No, you really don't. Do you remember the time I came over and brought you that movie. . And we spent all night telling each other how much we loved each other?"

"No, I try to forget."

"Put it down."

"No! You made me broken. Why couldn't you have made me perfect?"

"Oh sweetheart, what makes you think you'll ever be perfect?"

"Fuck off."

"And when I do you'll just come right back. Come on, Mik. You know we won't ever be apart."

"I know. .I just wish you'd treat me better.

"And you think you treat me like a king? Think again, sweetie.

"I'm sorry. ."

"Good girl, come here."

"Okay. . ."

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I see it. I see how much you hurt me but I can't seem to find the motivation to leave you. I just let you do this, and it kills me. But I want you here, I want you here so badly I'll put up with you. I had you for ten months before you cheated and then two after that, a total of a year was spent with you and I'm not willing to give that up.

Maybe If Words Would Come Out Of My Mouth

If I could craft words like Mr.Darcy, I wouldn't be in this situation.

Maybe if you actually loved me, and listened to me, we wouldn't be so far apart...Don't blame me for you not being there to listen, when I gave you chance upon chance to be that one.

But right now, I don't even care because I don't even want you. My feelings have changed. But I'm not a princess, and this isn't what I had expected and in the end, I don't expect anything to happen. I'll just sit here and maybe someone, somewhere, someday, will realize my potential. I wrote this for you, but you'll never know that. Ha. <<<Look, I laughed. 

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you worry me at times
you're animated about everything but me
and my gut says that's not healthy
pluck up the courage and ask you
a question i don't know the answer to
and your reply is not satisfactory

i wanna do everything right
i wanna make the loose ends tight

when will i be more than a novelty to you?
when will i be more than a force to push you through?
i have potential too

you scare me at times
you're full up of phrases about what you can do
but it's me who's taking this flight
i can deal with turbulence
but i'm not dealing it out like you
so please bare me in mind

i wanna do everything right
i wanna make the loose ends tight

when will i be more than a novelty to you?
when will i be more than a force to push you through?
i have potential too

if i played all the right chords, would i strike a chord with you?
if i played all the right strings, could you pull some for me too?

Don't Give Up On Me

You're right. I do need you. I wish I didn't but I do. Won't you just leave me alone? I guarantee the only reason you are here is because you know you hurt me, you have that control. I hate you for that. The way we fight, the times I've cried, we've come to blows but that passion is there so it's gotta be right? Right?

Right?

Do you even understand what you've done to me? I had another panic attack today by the time I got home. I laid on my bed and tried so hard to breathe : in, out, in, out. You'd never think breathing would require effort. Well, it does. And I have all these thoughts going around and around and no matter how much I get them out they will never make sense.

I need to get out of here. 

I know I'm messed up, but I just need someone to listen, someone to care and not judge me. Anyone?

That's what I thought.

Hate

I rode in the car in silence all the way home, waiting for her to say anything to me, waiting for her to tell me it was all okay and we would be okay and everyone was going to get better now and it would feel better. But she didn't. She tried and then she faltered, her voice started breaking and she threw her phone over on my lap and just said "Read it." I took a look and there it was, plain as day, she was looking at him, probably thinking about how much he means to her and then below it "Too bad she's fake." and then I realized it. He was already crazy about her not being real, being too good to be true. And this certainly didn't help. She turned to me with her huge eyes full of tears, "What am I going to do?" I looked at her in all her misery, she didn't need another heartbreak. And I just shrugged. I have no thoughts, no feelings. . just numbness. She was shaking so badly that I had to drive us home. That wasn't exactly safe, seeing as how i could have ran us into anything just to end it. But I didn't. I took the consideration to let her feel, and as funny as it is, I am jealous of her ability to feel this. And then when we got home she balled. But in thirty minutes she was dressed, composed and looked every inch of perfection. I admire that because I couldn't do it. 

To whoever that girl was who hurt her: Hate only ruins peoples lives. Just shut up and let them be happy. Please? She's already been through enough. 

You seem to think that by saying all the things you used to that I will come running back to you. Well I won't. So calling me beautiful, or telling me you missed me won't work this time. I don't believe you, I never did. I don't think you actually mean what you say. So if you want me to come back, you have to prove to me that you mean every single word.