What a horrible thing it is to think that a person is ever more than just a person. The world is full of people who are constantly imagining and constantly being misimagined.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

The Sun Will Rise For Us, We Just Don't Know How.

Cameron, I hope for the love of god that one day I will be forgiven for all of the things that I didn't do. All of the things that I DIDN'T see. I see know all of those moments where I wasn't helping, I was hindering. . anything! I remember when you went to Bobby's house a few days later and he told me you had smoked weed, I was furious! I was so upset that you would lie to me even after I helped you, but then I calmed down and that night I called you, asking you to just listen, to just stop and smell the roses for once, to realized that drugs didn't need to be a part of anything you ever needed. You kind of had a tone with me that seemed like you were regretting everything, and I never wished more to hug someone in my life. I remember this because in ninth grade when I was so in "like" with you, you used to tell me things about how great the world was, how we all just needed to take a step back. I remember you saying this, "Goodnight Angelito, just remember, it's always darkest before the dawn. The sun will rise for us, we just don't know how." 
The sun is rising every morning and every morning I thank god that I am here to see it. The only problem is that I wish you could see it too, but you are up there with the sun, looking down with it, probably laughing when we stumble and crying with us when we break. The sun will rise for us, we just don't know how.
. Anytime you want to visit, Cam, I'll be here.