What a horrible thing it is to think that a person is ever more than just a person. The world is full of people who are constantly imagining and constantly being misimagined.

Monday, May 16, 2011

It Was Only A Kiss

I want to cry, all the time, I want to scream and cry and I just wish you would care because to be honest, you are the one breaking me apart with the words you think will make me fall into your arms. 
"It was a mistake, Mikky."
"No, it wasn't you made the same mistake twice."
"And I won't do it a third time, I realize what I had when I lost it."
"Good, I should have left the first time."
"I never meant to hurt you."
"Don't pull that shit with me, Michael. You wanted her and I wasn't her. She was blonde, she was blue eyed and gorgeous and she gave you everything I couldn't."
"She was a mistake!"
"So we're you."
"You don't believe that."
"Yes, I do."
"No, you really don't. Do you remember the time I came over and brought you that movie. . And we spent all night telling each other how much we loved each other?"
"No, I try to forget."
"Put it down."
"No! You made me broken. Why couldn't you have made me perfect?"
"Oh sweetheart, what makes you think you'll ever be perfect?"
"Fuck off."
"And when I do you'll just come right back. Come on, Mik. You know we won't ever be apart."
"I know. .I just wish you'd treat me better.
"And you think you treat me like a king? Think again, sweetie.
"I'm sorry. ."
"Good girl, come here."
"Okay. . ."
I see it. I see how much you hurt me but I can't seem to find the motivation to leave you. I just let you do this, and it kills me. But I want you here, I want you here so badly I'll put up with you. I had you for ten months before you cheated and then two after that, a total of a year was spent with you and I'm not willing to give that up.

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